Showing posts with label True Confessions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label True Confessions. Show all posts

True Confessions

Hello friends, it has been a heavy week so I figured it was the perfect time to get a few things off my chest!
  • We celebrated the life of my aunt on Saturday, and laid her to rest in my hometown. Saturday just happened to be our 6th wedding anniversary. During the funeral, they played a slideshow of pictures that my husband and I put together of her life. I cried extra hard when pictures of me and Deb popped up from my wedding day. I am so glad she got to experience that with me, but it made it extra sad that she was no longer going to be around.
  • I am truely blessed by those of you that have sent me messages and emails over the last few weeks. You have no idea how much a random *hug* means-so thank you. I appreciate you continuing to stop by my blog even when I haven't been around much lately. That will soon change, got some big things planned for this blog!
  • I am a worrier by nature, those of you who know me are aware of this.  I always have been a what if this kind of person. I am trying to remember to breath and let things happen as they naturally will. But its so hard to wait for things sometimes, especially when you know they are wonderful amazing things! Patience is a virtue that I wish I had more of.
  • I ate a piece of Pecan Pie yesterday....and it was fabulous. 
  • I still have baskets of laundry from last week piled on the bedroom floor, those will be out away before today is over. Promise. Well I will promise I will try to.
  • I am starting to get a cough and touch of a sore throat. I am not a fan of being sick, but I think my body is just exhausted from all the emotional drain of the past few weeks. Just hope it passes on its own quickly.
  • I am looking forward to Thanksgiving more this year then ever!  What a wonderful time to count our blessings and be with family!
Anything you want to share? It lightens the load to talk with others...go ahead...I'm listening.


True Confessions Tuesday

Oh this is gonna feel good.  Been a bad girl the past week, well not bad bad, but definitely not good.
  • Ended the Biggest Loser challenge at work...I was only down 4 lbs.  So needless to say I didn't win the cash money grand prize.  Suck. Oh well it's my own fault.  At least I ended lighter then I began.
  • I haven't tracked my food for the last week and a half, and *may* have consumed Five Guys, pizza, White chocolate Reese Cup(s), graham cracker and icing sandwiches, and a Spicy Chicken Sandwich during that time.
  • On the plus side, I passed up an awesome looking Sticky Bun, Chinese, BW3s and Peanut Butter Oreos.
  • I started C25K week 5 last night and only had to stop roughly 20 seconds short the first 2 intervals!  I still am sweating like a banshee, but it feels great!  I earned that sweat.
  • I found out my cousin  is going to have a little boy in December!  She had a little girl who turns 1 in a few weeks...so happy to see her beautiful family growing and thrilled to have a baby boy in the family again. The last baby boy is  now 11.
  • I decided to quit thinking about it and bought some fertility related products over the weekend.  Figure if the dr doesn't want to do anything medically until the end of the year, I might as well try to increase the odds all that I can in the mean time.  Amazingly, I'm not as stressed as I was a few months ago.  I'm just accepting that our little bean just isn't ready to be created yet. She/He will know when it's time.
  • I have begun to realize that I am a self narrrator....way too much.  On Saturday when I was cleaning the house and walking thru the living room to go get the vaccum, I went into detail to the dog about what I was going to do next, then after that and that, and explain that when that was done I would shower and then cuddle for a little bit.  I think I got a huff from her, like come on lady just do it, your words mean nothing to me.
  • This was the best part of my day yesterday and I think it was her's too.


True Confessions Tuesday

My true confessions this week doesn't need words...although I will give you some highlights.  The pictures will say a thousand words. Let's just hope they don't put a thousand pounds on the scale this week!


Birthday Dinner...Seasame Chicken and Chicken Lo Mein. With a  Pepsi...or two.

 
Birthday Dessert...Strawberry Golden Oreo Blizzard. I highly recommend this, it was awesome!


Friday's dinner....buffalo chicken sandwich, french fries and a tall Bud Light. Oh with a side of ranch for dipping.

 








Saturday's Lunch....Primante Bros Black Angus Sandwich.  Drool.


Saturday's Snacks....fudge samples from Cabela's.  Favorite was the Carmel Praline...or the Carmel Nut...or the Chocolate Nut...or the Lemon Pie.


Then I was thirsty from all the fudge, so I needed an Icee. Cherry.














Saturday Dinner...All the Way Pizza from our favorite local pizza place. With Sweet Tea. Oh and cheesy garlic bread.








Wow...no wonder I felt bloated this weeknd...that's more unhealthy stuff then I've had in a long time.  But I had a good time during all of it, so I'm not beating myself up, just stopping the cycle before it becomes normal again.

True Confessions Tuesday

True Confessions

Deep breathe....here we go, time for a little soul cleansing.
  • I was really scared Friday night with my dizzy episode. I haven't been scared by a headache for a really really long time.
  • I have accumulated several glass containers from yardsales to create my perfect mantle and now have no clue how I am going to integrate them all together.
  • I did not feel like runnnig would be beneficial to my head ordeal, so I didn't exercise at all this weekend.  
  • On top of that, I had pizza and regular soda on Saturday night along with my salad.  Hey at least I got my veggies in.
  • I wanted to make some homemade caramel popcorn but resisted.
  • One of our orange fish died on Sunday.  She had been the sickest one a few weeks ago.  She seemed better but must have just not been able to beat it.  RIP little momma.
  • As if that wasn't enough pond drama for the day, the tube leading up to the upper waterfall sprung a leak so we had to stop using that until we get it repaired.  This means less filtering for the time being. Suck.
  • I ate a single with cheese and med fries from Wendy's yesterday on my way to the dr. It wasn't as good as I remembered.
  • I did manage to stay within my calorie count even with a huge lunch.  Go me!
  • I wanted to stick my tongue out and crunch my nose at all the pregnant ladies in the doctors office yesterday.  Sorry but I did. Just out of jealousy, not because of them personally. Note I didn't know any of them, I am not jealous of my pregnant friends, only pregnant strangers.
  • I finished C25K W3 last night and with the exception of being really hot, my legs felt good and I didn't have any side pain.  Was really surprised since I hadn't exercised since Thursday.
  • I am scared to start the next level on C25K.  Like REALLY REALLY SCARED!
Ahhh....that kinda feels better, anything you want to share?

I've been a bad bad girl...sing it Fiona!

Well well, it's Tuesday already!  There are a few things I need to get off my chest so good thing it's time to fess up and let it all hang out.

        • Even though I probably sweated out 142,785 calories while setting up and having our garage sale in 90 degree heat, it did not equal out the Chinese we had Thursday night (and leftovers on Friday for lunch) or Pizza at the lake on Friday night (and again on Saturday night at home).  Soduim...party of 1?  Yeah, bloated a bit...and surely that will be reflected in this week's WI.
        • Didn't get any walking in since Wednesday evening (unless you count the 1/2 mile I walked around looking at yardsales).  Boo me.
        • So here I am all in my bloated unexercisiness when I check Shrinking Jeans on Sunday to see that Bari had put me in the Sister Spotlight!  Wow...didn't really feel like I deserved that after my behavior the last few days.  But like she said, I dusted myself off and straightened my ass up. Thanks Bari...gave me more motivation to get back on track more then you know!
        • I think I am obsessed with peeing on sticks.  It's a condition, I swear it is and there really should be support groups for people like me.
        • I think I spent at least 6 hours trying to figure out what bathing suit I wanted to get from Lands End.  Seriously would I look better in Rhododendron or Deep Sea Blue or Plum?  Tough call.  I so went with a Tankini though because these abs are not ready to make their debut anytime soon.
        • We were exhausted on Sunday and decided to make it a movie day and just lounge and spend some much needed QT with Miss Emma.  Sherlock Holmes and Extraordinary Measures were sitting on the counter from the library..and we watched them both.  You can probably guess it, but I didn't get out of my pajamas all day....and it was excellent!
        Ok well that's enough dirt for one week, my halo is pretty tarnished this week.  Anything you need to get off your chest...come share with the Sisters...we won't laugh at you.  Well maybe chuckle a little, but definitely not laugh.

        True Confessions Tuesday

        My confession has a first name, it's
        C-U-P-C-A-K-E
        My confession has a second name, it's
        B-U-T-T-E-R-C-R-E-A-M
        F-R-O-S-T-I-N-G
        {ohhh...maaa...gaaa...they were sooo good}
        *but of course I felt sooo bad after realizing I had eaten 6 of these between Saturday and Sunday

        True Confessions Tuesday

        True Confessions

        Its Tuesday time to share what's on our minds...good or bad with our sisters over at Shrinking Jeans.

      • I have gotten 2 days of  the 30 Day Shred challenge in.  Yes I know it's only been going on for 2 days....but I'm hoping to continue this trend for the whole month.  Been getting up at 5AM to get it done before work, and so far I am glad I did.  While it sucks getting out of bed an hour earlier, especially when I wake up about 3:30 and have trouble falling back asleep, it's nice to have it out of the way.

      • WI tonight at WW.  Hoping to see a loss after last week's slight gain.  I have been good and stayed on track this week.

      • In that same regard, I resisted Chinese food this weekend.  That is an accomplishment because I love me some Lo Mein and eggrolls!

      • I'm trying to get the nerve up to post my before pictures for the current 30 Day Shred Challenge.  I know they are before pics, but I feel like an Oompa Lompa.

      • I am not convinced that I like my new running shoes.  They feel a little odd while I'm working out towards the outside toe area, but my feet don't hurt afterwards.  So maybe they just need stretched out.  I love the style and fit just am not sure if they will ever feel great.  Need to keep an eye on this before the 60 day return policy is up in case I want to try a different style.

      • I am officially back on the coffee wagon, counting my points for the SF creamer and even the full fat good kind I splurge for on the weekends, but the caffeine is definitely helping keep me focused in the mornings.

        Hope everyone has a great day, I'm proud of myself for the good week that I have had and hope it continues and rewards me with a good number on the scale!

      • True Confession Tuesday

        True Confessions
        Here we go…in no particular order....hold on this might be a bumpy ride.

        • I am a worrier. The inches of ice and snow that have accumulated over the snow storms of the last few weeks have me freaking out that our roof is going to start leaking once it thaws out. Not sure why, shouldn’t be any damage from the storm, just thinking the worst. There were almost 4 inches of ice in some places…that can not be good for the shingles.

        • I finally made the decision (I think so at least) about what DSLR I am going to splurge on with tax return money. Eeek! So freakin excited to be buying a REAL camera!!! It’s a lot of money to spend, especially when I don’t have an adorable baby to take pictures of yet, but it’s something I have been wanting for years and I know it will be put to good use. So I might as well bite the bullet, quit overanalyzing it and get it for myself right? Sure I could spend it on new countertops or something for the house…but I rarely get any big ticket items for myself…and I deserve to. Right?  It's ok to be selfish sometimes isn't it?

        • I spent way to much time tweaking my blog and lounging this weekend-it was nice I must admit.  Bad side, I did not workout either which has me mucho nervous about WW tonight! Why can't I get refocused!

        • Part of this trouble refocusing on working out, had me "this close" to joining the VTNT Sisters for the San Diego Marathon.  It would amazing to do it for my aunt and raise money for research that I know has helped and continues helping her.  I'd be jumping into it so late and would I be able to raise the money in a few months?  And then I start to think about the sisters who are working hard for this race and I feel like I would be doing it a little disgrace by jumping on board and would probably only run maybe half of it.  I think its an awesome thing to do and I commend them for stepping up to the plate and pushing their bodies to do it.  I'm just a tad bit jealous of their mad training skillz.  Maybe I'll work towards it this summer and sign up for a local race in the fall.  Still honoring my aunt but making her proud of what I am doing at the same time. I don't know...why is this so hard for me to let go?  Something keeps dragging me back to considering it. I need to just let it go.

        • My aunt started her chemotherapy on Saturday night. She is taking the pill form again, like she did after her first surgery. She is at home and people are taking turns being with her while her husband is at work. My grandma stops over for a few hours each day and frequently uses the phrase “bless her heart!” when she talks about her unloading the dishwasher or wanting to help with dinner. She’s a strong woman and the dr said to let her do whatever she felt like she could.

        • She had some issues when she first got home, she kept talking about being a little girl in Mexico at the beach. But she is doing better and is back to her normal personality now. Guess that’s common with brain surgeries to pick up on different personality traits hidden with in. I’m just glad that hers was happy.

        • I woke up with a killer migraine this morning about 3am. Was still there when I woke up and started getting ready, but then it turned into a pinching migraine which makes me nauseous. So I called the boss and told him I would be in late. Went back to bed for a few hours. It has turned into a pulsing migraine, which for me is better because it doesn’t make me feel like I want to hurl my guts out. Hoping it makes like a tree and leaves soon.

        Whew...I feel better and a little ashamed at the same time.  Know what I mean? Come share your confessions with the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans…I’m sure you’ll find some interesting things there!


        True Confessions Tuesday

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        Time to fess up to things we are proud of....and not so proud of with the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.

        *WW weigh-in tonight…hope to see a loss from my initial weigh-in…fingers crossed! It’s not until 6:30…so need to be diligent today!

        *Planned on only eating half my flex points, ended up eating all of them and a few extra…did you know ¼ of a lg Donatos pizza is 17 pts!!! Well…I do now! Yikes!

        *Tracked everything, even the super high day on Friday. Finding it much easier to plan the next days menus ahead of time, seeing the points sometimes changes my mind.

        *Worked out 4 days….2 of those days were 60 minute workouts where I burned around 450 calories each day! Woot!

        *Started opening myself up to some of the sisters, still not sure how I that will go but all I can do is be myself…as dorky and over-thinking as I am, you either like me or you don’t. Considering joining them for a gathering this year…we’ll see how that works out. I mean BeDazzler Night….who wouldn’t want to be there!!! LOL!

        *I have found the support of the sisters and my other regular readers to be such an amazing thing….so thank you for all the comments, tweets and emails. I really appreciate all of my bloggy friends!!!

        *I am really craving white chili again….OMG it was soo good!!!

        What's on your mind this chilly Tuesday morning?  Come link up at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.

        True Confessions Tuesday

        The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans True Confessions

         Time to open our hearts and share at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.


        1) I had a meltdown on Saturday, like the snot coming out of your nose crying meltdown. You know, the one where you are crying and then you just cry harder because of how hard you are crying. And then when you try to explain why you are crying, you just feel even more upset and cry some more. Anyone? No….just me, ok then…nevermind.

        2) I have been counting my points, getting my water in and exercising regularly the past week, even working out Friday evening. Kind of frustrated that the scale really hasn’t budged since last WI…but trying not to let it get me down, I know I’m doing the right stuff.

        3) Emma must have hurt herself again, after babying her all weekend, she was doing better and then yesterday started slowing down again.

        4) CONFESSION: I skipped my workout last night after getting home and finding out Emma wasn’t feeling good again. Feel bad about it and can’t wait to exercise after my meeting tonight before Biggest Loser comes on!

        5) What meeting you ask? I am officially starting Weight Watchers tonight…my first meeting is at 6:30! Got my passes I won in the 12 Days of Christmas giveaway here at Shrinking Jeans and can’t wait to get started.

        6) CONFESSION: I am so nervous about being judged at the meeting tonight. I have only gone to one open house before and got the “What are you doing here” look…like I wasn’t big enough to be there. Do I need to lift up my shirt and actually show them my muffin-top spilling over my pants? Or wear a nametag with my BMI plastered on it? I’m praying that was just a rare occurrence and tonight I will be welcomed with open arms.

        7) For the time being, for reasons that I am not ready to share, operation baby is on standby so to speak. I am really sad about this, but understand the reasons and know that whatever is meant to happen will happen. Looking to a higher power to help us along this journey.

        Well now that you all know what an emotional week it has been, come share your thoughts and trials with the Sisters…we all are really good listeners!

        True Confessions Tuesday

        The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans True Confessions

        Let’s see…what has been weighing heavy on my heart and soul this week? Time to 'fess up for the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.

        1) I am feeling like I’m not really giving my hubby the attention he deserves, need to work on that. Guess sometimes I just get to comfortable and need to take a step back and work at trying to make him spontaneously happy.

        2) We ordered pizza Friday night, and I am discovered that I love banana peppers. Don’t really know if that counts as a confession, but wanted to share it anyway.

        3) I drank a full strength Mt Dew on Sunday, felt a migraine coming on sometimes caffeine helps.

        4) I planned on working out Sunday night after dinner, but started sneezing a dozen times in a row repeatedly and felt achy, thought I needed to rest.  Think it was a good call, as I slept like a log and woke up with a sore throat Monday morning.

        5) Emma hurt her leg on the ice Friday so we had to baby her all weekend, carrying her up and down the stairs and not letting her jump off the couch. It made me sad to think she’s getting older and will start having more aches and pains.

        6) I’m proud of myself for finishing the No More Trouble Zones workout last night, even though I wanted to tell Jillian to surrender herself after making me do those horrible surrender reps (WTF!) (yeah, maybe someday I’ll incorporate weights above my head, but not now sister!)

        7) I sampled one of the Pecan Crowns that came in the mail from my Shrinking Jeans friends last night…then I sampled another. Ruling: they are ah-mazing good.

        8) I’m contemplating starting to drink coffee again. I am loving hot cocoa in the mornings and am counting the calories, but wonder if I’d be better off drinking coffee with SF creamer. Less calories but more caffeine…which is really better for my body?

        Whew...that feels better!  Anything you need to get off your chest this week?  We have some great listeners over at the Sisterhood!  Come share!

        True Confessions Tuesday

        This is the first time (that I recall at least) doing a True Confession with the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.  Like several of you have said, this one hurts just a bit alot.  So here goes...some of the things I need to get off my chest as I head into the New Year.
        • I ate probably 10 lbs of candy in the last week, guesstimating of course.  Mostly toffee (work of the devil...tasty little devil), but also including Snickers nutcrackers, rice crispie treats, McD's Holiday Pies, etc.
        • I am guilty of sneaking some treats behind hubby's back....I hate doing this really it feels soo wrong, but it tastes so good for some reason.  I feel kinda like an addict...jonesing for some toffee!
        • I realized yesterday that I didn't cry once on Christmas about my mom...and I feel guilty about that.  I cried a few times the week of....but I didn't have that wave of sadness from the minute I woke up after having a dream like I did last year.
        • I love the fact that I got Pyrex, a knitting loom and socks for Christmas...and am so thrilled about all of them!
        • I have been staying up until about 2 or 3 during this holiday break and waking up about 9ish...my schedule is sooo out of whack!  Monday will be a rough morning when I have to go back to work.
        • I have yet to go git fitted for the bridesmaid dress that I will be wearing in May...need to do that in January.  Putting it off for a few reasons (hoping for preg and need to stop eating the candy).  I think the two are confused...because one is happening way easier than the other.  Bummer.
        Stop over for dreaded weigh-in Wednesday with the Sisterhood.  Even bigger news: there is a new exciting challenge Re-Think your Shrink starting tomorrow that I am sooo psyched about and I know will give me the boost that I need to get back on track.  I have faith in my Sisters...they are awesome and helped me so much this fall...I just have to believe in myself that I can do it!